change

i dont really enjoy change.

unless its for the better.

but in about 40 days it will all be different.

my life will flip around completely.

for better and for worse.

i cant decide which one.

the more i think about it, the more it freaks me out.

and the more i realize how much these last 40 days actually matter to me.

i cant take any day for granted.

i never realized how golden 40 days could actually be.

i've known about this day for atleast 3 months now.

but didnt realize how fast it would go by.

i know 40 days is still a good month.

it may sound like a long time to you.

but to me, its too short.

i'm pretty sure i can face it.

i will be strong and fight through it.

and i know that in the end, it will all be worth it.

july 21, 2010..

the day my best friend,

the person that means the world to me.

will leave for 2 years.

{i think i can, i think i can}